Monday, March 23, 2009

Oh Lord it's hard to be humble...really

Oh Lord, it's hard to be humble but I'm doin' the best I can

I am a bit of a dichotomy, as I guess most of us are. In some ways I am incredibly vain (computer stuff, stretching the money, reading fast) and in some ways I am incredibly insecure (my looks, being tactful, whether I measure up). But I think the more I think about it, the more I think that insecurity and vanity are the two sides of a coin. They both have no business with God. If I am putting my efforts into overcoming insecurity or putting my efforts into supporting my ego, both ways I am not letting God do the heavy lifting.

Matt 6:19 says "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal."

Let say that you treasured your fleshy abilities. Say maybe computer stuff. You were excellent in computer stuff and you spent your time keeping up with technology (say). Not that you weren't following God but occasionally (for months at a time, He was in the back seat). Like when the router needed a new DD-wrt update or when the iphone needed to be jailbroke...

How would one keep God from being delegated to the back, never mind the fact that He isn't driving? It is all a matter of time, money and thoughts. Hmm, where do your time, money, and thoughts go...? For me, it is mostly about thoughts. I daydream...a lot. I imagine all sorts of things, I imagine winning money (and giving it to God...can't figure out if I started to feel guilty about winning money so I decided to give it to God to assuage my guilt or it was my true intention).

Oh Holy Spirit give me purity of thought, let me believe in your strength so that you flourish in me...